Grabbys Spotlight: The Deepthroat Boy
Targeting trophies in Torremolinos.
As we count down towards the Grabby Awards in Torremolinos, we caught up with The Deepthroat Boy to discuss his nominations.
You've said that winning a Grabby Award would be confirmation that staying true to yourself was worth it - how did you discover and start to explore that performing on camera and content creation was something that you're passionate about?
Even when I was younger, I remember thinking it would be amazing to be in a porn video one day. The “Gag The Fag series” especially stuck with me - the intensity and the energy of those videos made me imagine what it might feel like to be part of something like that myself.
Years later, during a financial crisis, I decided to let go of my shame, show my face, and start creating content. It felt like a bit of a leap at the time, but also strangely exciting. And funnily enough, one of my first videos very much inspired by the same kind of energy, ended up becoming my first viral clip.
Seeing how strongly people reacted to it made me realise that something I had only imagined from afar could actually become a real part of my life.
Do you consider yourself an exhibitionist?
I don’t think I’d call myself an exhibitionist in the classic sense. I’m actually quite shy in everyday life until I get comfortable around someone. But there’s something fun about sharing those moments on camera and knowing people out there might be enjoying them with you.
Part of what I like is that I’m not the perfectly sculpted fantasy but much more the “boy next door.” I think that makes it easier for people to see themselves in what they’re watching, rather than feeling like they’re looking at some unreachable ideal.
There’s something exciting about keeping things a bit more real and human.
What was your relationship with your body like when you were growing up?
Growing up, I was taller than most of my friends - very thin, and clearly the gay kid in the room. I was also the “smart one,” which somehow became another reason to get teased. Locker rooms were definitely not my favourite place, and I tried to get in and out as quickly as possible. I was very self-conscious about my body.
To be honest, that hasn’t completely disappeared. Even today, I still carry some insecurity around my upper body, which can make it hard to take my shirt off and feel confident.
Doing this work has helped me see bodies differently. It’s less about perfection and more about accepting that bodies are real and imperfect. But even in this industry, people compare themselves more than you might expect.
It's slightly surreal that the shy kid who used to avoid the locker-room ended up making a living getting fucked on camera.
How has your work in the adult entertainment industry changed your relationship with your body and the way that you experience intimacy?
In some ways, it’s made me kinder to myself - in other ways it’s made me more aware of my insecurities.
Being on camera doesn’t magically make you feel perfect about your body. If anything, you realise that everyone - even people in porn - have things they’re self-conscious about. Unfortunately, not everyone in the industry is always kind or empathetic - you learn to protect yourself and distance yourself from connections that don’t feel healthy.
I used to spend a lot of time comparing myself to others. Now, I try to be more relaxed about it and just be present in the moment.
Intimacy can be a bit more complicated. Not everyone is comfortable dating someone who works in this industry. But it has taught me to value honesty, trust, and communication much more when those connections do happen.
What is on your vision-board for the months ahead?
I've just come back from Beyond Darklands, which is an event I really enjoy attending. It’s a great space not only for creating content, but also simply for having fun and connecting with people who share the same interests. Experiences like that remind me how much community there is around this world.
For now, the main thing ahead is the Grabbys. This year, performers had to nominate themselves and then be validated by the jury. I decided to put myself forward in four categories that feel true to the kind of content I create - Fetish Actor, Submissive Fetish Actor, Best Bottom, and JustFor.Fans European Fan Favourite of the Year. It already feels meaningful just to put myself out there in those spaces.
Beyond that, I mainly want to keep creating and collaborating with people I admire. Since there aren’t many content creators based in Lisbon, that usually means travelling, so I already have a few trips planned and others booked for the coming months.
For now, I’m just excited to see where those experiences take me next.
Gareth Johnson
