Grabbys Spotlight: Jonzu
Targeting trophies in Torremolinos.
As we count down towards the Grabby Awards in Torremolinos, we caught up with Jonzu.
Gareth Johnson
Jonzu is nominated in four categories:
- Most Accomplished Actor of the Year
- Fetish Actor of the Year
- Live Sex Performer of the Year
- Social Media Personality of the Year
Gareth Johnson
How did you discover and start to explore that performing on camera and content creation was something that you're passionate about?
I knew from an early age that I wanted to produce content to some level.
It all started with fashion, behind-the-scenes as a stylist - which I still do here and there today.
During Covid, something clicked that I truly craved to utilise my physical form for creation.
Do you consider yourself an exhibitionist?
Yes and no. I’m actually a naturally shy and more introverted person. I would say I’m a performer.
The idea of using myself kind of as a character of sorts is what I enjoy about what I do. It’s almost as if I’m playing The Sims and I chose to make my particular character this artsy porn slut.
What was your relationship with your body like when you were growing up?
It took me a while to get fully comfortable with my body.
Growing up, I struggled with body image and weight, my sexuality, and my expression. I remember being petrified to take my shirt off in the locker room.
Of course, working out as an adult has helped to remedy a lot of my insecurities, but so has really loving myself for who I am - fully.
How has your work in the adult entertainment industry changed your relationship with your body and the way that you experience intimacy?
I am much more go with the flow and open sexually - and also with the way I view my body.
I’m surrounded by absolutely stunning men, constantly. One constant that I’ve noticed is the looming insecurities of most - mainly pertaining to body-image. The most ripped, chiselled, on-paper perfect guys; by and large do not believe they are enough. They aren’t big enough or skinny enough. This needs to be improved or fixed.
There are so many guys who are - in a way - slaves to unrelenting and fairly unrealistic beauty standards within the gay community, that have taken to steroids, testosterone, fillers, botox, various cosmetic work, new teeth, new faces. The limit doesn’t exist. I see all this and am surrounded by it. Because of this, I’ve honestly truly learned to love my physical and emotional self in all of its forms.
Yes, I work out like I’m training for a Spartan race, and yes I probably have one too many steps in my skincare routine, but nonetheless, I’ve made a stance to end it there.
Though I enjoy the admiration of the male gaze, I do not work-out for them. I work-out for me. To be the superhero my younger-self needed and aspired to be.
I treat my canvas and soul like a temple. Sure, all of these procedures and substances are options - but they are a means to an end. They are quick fixes, that might work - kind of - but only for so long and only to a certain extent. I would much rather like to hold some form of longevity.
I think this has also translated into the way I go about intimacy. Yes, I could go about life expecting that anyone and everyone should and will want to fuck my brains out because of what I do, but I choose to seperate the character and the human. I prefer to meet people where they’re at and vice versa. To just be, in the moment, as I am, without the pretence, or any expectation.
Beyond the Grabby Awards, what else is on your vision-board for the months ahead?
Ideally, I would like to finally direct adult content for studios. I know for a fact that directing is the trajectory my career will be taking as the years go on.
Maybe I could land a big campaign.
Lastly, finally, produce some solid music - Indie Alt ElectroClash.
Voting for the Grabby Awards is now open.
Gareth Johnson
