ManCrush: Mayeubaise
We follow him hard.
A while back, we caught up with Mayeubaise for a behind-the-scenes look at his online life.
How did you discover and start to explore that performing on camera and content creation was something that you're passionate about?
I've always loved to post thirst-traps online. It's helped me accept and be more confident about my body.
I joked about opening an OnlyFans, but I always knew deep down that it was something that I would like to do. It’s not about the money, but more about showing myself, pushing myself to discover new stuff, but also meet people I always admired and fantasised about.
Do you consider yourself an exhibitionist?
Yes, even though it's mostly online.
I've never been to sauna, and I've only been to a cruising spot once.
Showing off online made me courageous enough to go to try those places and discover that I love sucking off people at the beach in front of everyone.
What was your relationship with your body like when you were growing up?
My relationship with my body isn’t a love story. I never liked it - I hated my big thighs and that I wasn't very tall.
I always thought that I was overweight - sometimes I still think that.
Being online helps me a lot, but also joining a rugby club helped a lot.
At first, I was afraid to go into the showers with all my mates - even looking in the directions of the shower was difficult. But, with some time, I've been able to join them.
How has your work in the adult entertainment industry changed your relationship with your body and the way that you experience intimacy?
It has changed me for the better for sure. Sometimes I feel like I need to be "in better shape" to be able to collab with some of the more famous guys.
I’m starting to feel better about my own body but also I feel like I don't fit into this industry because it seems that I don’t have the shape for it.
Every time I get rejected by a photographer or I don’t get a response for a collab, I’m like: "Maybe it’s because I’m a big boy?"
In terms of intimacy, I don’t think it has changed much. I've always been a slut and that will not change. It has helped me "filter" people better.
As I want to continue in this industry, I want to be in a relationship with someone who is open-minded, who supports me. I know that's not going to work for everybody, but it’s a must for me.
What's on your vision-board for the months ahead?
I always wanted to do this for fun, exposure, and exhibitionism - never for money. I don’t want to collab with people only for stats. I understand that this is a job, but I’m afraid to lose myself in it and lose the fun part of it. I’m taking it slow. Trying out stuff, exploring my kinks.
I’m receiving a lot of fan-art recently - it would be cool to collab with an artist and publish a zine.
I’m just a goofy guy online - I'm just being myself - but I'd love to be able to use my platform to showcase the amazing and talented people within our community.
Gareth Johnson